Reading simon18's journal

Honey, im home

Hello NAOer's, it has been around 2 years since last i darkened your door. Last time you helped me when i was down, you picked me up, put your arm around my shoulder and told me you understand.

I return once again at a difficult time for myself, but also to help others who are in the position i was in 2 years ago, lost and confused.

Well what to tell you about the last two years. I got into a serious relationship, moved out of home, lost many and gained a few friends. So i guess i should tell everyone a little of what has occured.

Well, i met michelle in september of 2003, what must have been at most a month after i left NAO. It was the usual friend of a friend, we met on a night out, though nothing happened that night, fate as usual controlled my destiny. I met her by chance a month later in a nightclub. It turned out this was her night out before she went off to university the next day.

This wasnt to stop the fate of love, i went to visit her the next week end and it was really great. We were going outfor 1.5 years after that, with many ups and downs.

Well we broke up about 2 months ago but were still seeing each other. Its kinda weird we basically just sleep together and sometimes tell one another we love them. I dont get it at all i just feel like im following my feelings.

Then with work no going well because ive had a lot of time off sick lately with depression (not sure if i am depressed, i just feel totally unmotivated to do anything) and the same goes with my part time college, im just not motivated at all anymore. The that means theres more work for me to do and more pressure and its all getting so much im going to EXPLODE!

I have so much to do, but i dont think im strong enough to do it anymore.