Reading Salvial_Ten's journal

Lately, I've been thinking about my life quite a bit. Mainly because I've been in somewhat of a state of exasperation and irritance at my job and having a lot of things to save up for/buy and having a low income to not really provide enough of what I need to achieve my goals.

However, I have to take a look at where I am in life to gain some perspective. Like, right now I'm sitting in a comfortable chair in a coffee shop typing this on the laptop that my financial aid refund got me (I've noticed for months now that I really needed a new computer, and with how mobile I am now, a laptop was the best way to go), contemplating the cleanliness of my apartment, my GPA, and the fact that I've got a tight circle of friends. What do I really have to complain about?

My job? No, that's not even worth the effort of getting angry. It provides a pay check and soon enough I'll be equiped with skills that will make me more marketable to other fields of work beyond retail. And were that I to lose this one, I could find another job fairly easily. Baring procrastination that is.

Having to pay for a lot of shit? Eh, comes with the department of independant living and going to college. Rent isn't that big of a deal, I have no issues at all making that. I owe my roomate for covering shit her ex-flatmate wanted me to pay, but I can pay her off a little at a time and still be able to put up money for the trip I'm planning to take this summer. So, I won't have a lot of money to blow on worthless shit. This is a good thing in the long run.

My car isn't my first choice in vehicles but the fact of the matter is that it runs. It looks fairly nice, and it is 100% paid for. Besides, with where I now live, a lot of the driving in my life has been completely cut out. Work is the only place I really have to drive to, or the coffee shop, but that isn't so far away as to be taxing on my fuel economy. If it weren't for my tendancy to be here till two or three in the morning I'd probably just walk here.

So there, in a nut shell, is why life is sweet right now. I project that life is gonna stay pretty sweet until at least next year when the lease is up, in which case, I might look for another place with utilities included, and move on over with the roomie. Then again, maybe I'll be so set in the pad I'm in now that leaving would seem ludicrous. One way or another it doesn't matter yet. I've still got till Next August to worry about it.

--Jami

--Jami Yeah, that's gonna sting in the morning.

This is very nice. It's nice to see someone write about their life without complaining about problems.

Sure, you're not analyzing this, and turning it into some intellectual thesis.

Sometimes the most important things that we say come from the heart, and not the head.

For myself, there's not a week that goes by where at least once I've lloked into the sky at night, and fel grateful that I could see all those stars.
If yoou've ever lived in a place where the swtars at night were not visible, you too would feel grateful for them.

I look at this as a post of you showing your gratitude, and thanks for what you have, not lamenting what you don't.
We ALL would do well to show the same level of gratitude, despite the little that we think we have...things can always get much worse. Be grateful for what you have, while you have it.

And that is what makes your post worthwhile reading.

Once Fred Neitszche declared God is Dead, f*ck became the most important word in the English languag

Thanks Zen. Sometimes, I think sentiment has lost its value in the world. Or that people have forgotten what it was all together.

And you are quite right, I was showing gratitude for what I do have. This gratitude has been reaffirmed quite recently. I went out to the coffee shop I usually hang out at and on the way to it I passed by a homeless guy that was begging for change. I gave him a dollar and wished him luck.

--Jami

--Jami Yeah, that's gonna sting in the morning.