Reading Babygirls_Babydolls's journal

The really bad days are the only days you ask why. Why me. Why now. Why this. On all the other days you know why. The answer is a question: Why anyone else?
I’d rather have no sense of direction than the wrong one. . The really bad days are the pain and the nausea and all I can do is think about it. It consumes every nerve in my body to make me feel pain deeper than I ever thought possible. It has to borrow pain from other places to give you this and all you can do is pray.
We have been going through many struggles and I'm coming to realize that my background of thinking "realistically" may be the cause of many of our current troubles. I have begun thinking in terms of realities, allowing my fears and doubts to take over. The last few months have been especially difficult but very wonderful as I am slowly finding my way back to KNOWING. I KNOW that God is in control. I felt it the other day as I was on my knees crying to him. I don't know how, but I don't need to. God has been guiding me all along, with KNOWLEDGE and the clear vision of what I want. It's a tough road to follow, but very rewarding

You can go beyond believing, you can go on to knowing. Beyond believing there is knowing, not knowing in the intellectual sense but knowing in the spiritual sense of knowing in your heart!

Hope Willingham ~ Babygirls_babydolls ~ " Two men stand in prison bars, one sees mudd the ot