Reading POWF's journal

I don't want to offend or upset anyone in any shape or form but I need to get something off my chest. I have a real problem with visiting graves. When I walk up to one, instead of thinking of the person as how they were I just imagine their rotting body. It gets me so sick that I have to walk away. I would much rather stay home and remember a person for how they were, not stand over there once inhabited bodies.

Even with animals. Recently my pup Indy died and we buried him in the backyard. I cannot even walk up to the grave without thinking of his decaying body and wanting to throw up. The feeling is so overwhelming that I avoid it all together. Sometimes it even feels more intense then the greif I feel.

I'm not looking for advice or any of that. Its just a feeling I have that I want to release and writing it down makes it more palatable for me.

We should of brought a bag of rocks....