Reading zane's journal

This is something that I posted three years ago. Then it seems I had a much more lucid look on life. Now I struggle every day with the changes that have come about. I corrected the spelling mistakes and grammar before posting.

It is funny for me to read this from the past. Looking back I was a deep person, still am, but never realized I wrote it. It seems that I was right then. I am forgetting what it all means as that I am alone for the first time in my life.

"It is when we fall, and are broken, when the world gives up on us, and no one cares. But we are not alone still. That is when learn how to live. We learn what gets us through mentally, and face our inner most struggles. It’s these challenges that define us, and make us 'thick skinned' for the next challenge.

But it is on the days that we are alone. When no one is there to challenge us and no one is there to bring us from this solemn grave that we forget. This is when we forget what we learned, the hows and whys. We forget what makes us, us. It is when we are lonely, that we are undefined to ourselves. Let no one die undefined, without first learning to live, and knowing what to live for."

Anyways, if anyone has anything inspirational to say to cheer my day up, I could use it. I have been struggling for too long now. I just want to be happy again.

<I am the most complex person alive to my knowledge, save me>