Reading CarmenProfit's journal

Thursday, January 24, 2008.
Today my two year old has learned how to open bathroomdoors. got a hold of a razer, thanking he can shave. testing me on how far he can push me. Sleep eludes me everynight with gripping fear of something going wrong. I know I'm a good mother, but sometimes I just want to pool my hair out by clumps, but I know that I have to stay calm at all times but he makes it so hard with tampers, headbutting, throwing things, not wanting to eat, and touching things that can hurt him I just don't know what to do and I'm loosing my grip on everything around me. So what do I do?????

Saturday, January 26, 2008
Today I went to help my husband with the business that we own, putting computers, and cambnets togeather, it was not hard, just pain stackingly long. I have kept thinking about my son all day, and remembering what had happened yesterday, my roommate had threatened him with a hammer, and her fist, while everyone did nothing then she through him on the chair hitting his face on the arm rest spanking him. She makes him sit in the middle of the floor not allowing him be himself. I want to do her the way she does my son, but until I can move out of here their is not much I can do. I plead with my husband to let me go to my fathers for a week, but he refuse's to let us go that far just incase something might happen to us. I try to tell him that he can't let us know what she is doing to him, or how it makes him feel but he does not deserve how she treats him.
Know I know why she has lost her children herself the truth is finaly comming out in the end, and I don't know what to do to make her stop, but I am beyond my breaking point like a mother bear whose cub may be in danger. I don't know what to do anymore, but I fear for him for as long as I live here their is nothing I can do, she acts like his her son, but his not..... his mine. I tried to tell my husband but his right I can't keep saying the samething over, and over about it I just got to keep the faith, and I don't thank I have much more left.

Sunday, January 27, 2008
I know when people read this what they are probly thinking, one this is not my computer it's hers. Two I have tried but their is no place for us to go, I have no family. Third my husband and I have gone through a lot of bad things, and it looks like it will be over really soon because if everything goies the way were hoping it does we will have our own home by the end of this month. As for our roommate, when I do leave I will be call the cops on her to let them no what is going on what she has done to me, and mine, we do get this home she shows up I will have the police their to take her away so that she would never beable to hurt me again, or my son. I think talking to my husband he is going to probly send us to one of his realtives that leaves perty close by which would be fine with me if he can get a hold of someone which he had started to try in do so today, I know when I get out of here everything will go back to the way it use to.... She has threatened me, It's almost over, and my son, and I will be out of here soon very soon I know God is working out. And I am studing to get my Ged, and a college degree. In the maen time I do what I can to keep him out of danger, but I have no were to turn for I don't know anyone hear but my husband.

This post was edited by CarmenProfit on Jan 27, 2008.

Carmen, I am not sure what country you are from or that it matters, but the fact that you have a husband and a roommate living in the same dwelling together, is strange enough. You are a family. You have a husband who doesn't seem to care about what happens to his wife and child. You have a child, and allow someone else to bring physical harm to your child. It boggles my mind why either of you are allowing such things to happen.

First things first, get rid of this harmful person you call a roommate. Second, divorce the husband who apparently feels there is nothing wrong going on. THEN you can start raising your child properly and teaching and training him the way parents do for their children to prevent from doing harm to themselves and learning what is right and wrong.

If you want to change the way things are right now, YOU have to effect the change. You have to take action. Why would you ever allow another human being to cause harm to your child? Why would you ever provide a roof and room to someone who does harm to your child?

Get it taken care of and start parenting your child.

Rocket, If you know what the situation that my husband is in you would understand, I do thank you for your input, and we have trying to come up with otheir ways of getting me, and my son out of here. But so far we were not able to get a hold of his family members, and Orland is to far from were I am at know. But if everything goes right my son, and I will be out of here on the first. My husband has plains of getting us out, but we have to play it smart for mine, and my son's sake. So that me, and him won't get hurt. Thank you for your imput. And I am trying to get my GED so can go to collage. and this computer is not mine it's hers. Her husband is also scarried of her, and is also ready to leave. I pray to God everyday to get us through a day without any problems and today has been a good day.

I just read your "nightmare" post. I didn't realize you live in Alabama, in a trailer, with another couple.

So here is the update to my advice:

We live in America, get an education (force yourself to finish high school if you have to), get out of that place you are in, get a divorce, and seek professional counseling. FAST!

Good luck

P.S. how does someone with no money and unable to get their own place, afford to have a computer and internet access to write about how crappy their life is? talk about twisted priorities.

P.S.S. just because someone offers you their home because you cant afford to rent a place of your own, and still feel the need to raise children before anything else, doesn't give them or anyone the right to harm your children. Get out of that crap hole.