Reading harold_maude's journal

Well life just gets more and more interesting everyday, I gotta tell you...sounds like a page from a script from some old movie.

But that is what's going on here. To add to the growing list of things that need money thrown at it, is the muffler. Yep. That just joined the list last night. I think the poor thing developed a hole in it's soul.

I went into a normal state of stilled panic. That happens when things show up and I have to start the process of "what do
I do with this thingy? and where do I put it in order of importance?"

Well, I have learned that it's always important not to panic.
I also know that to get the basics to run a house I need the truck. It's an older truck and I am greatful that it's a tough truck, just like me...grinning.
Gotta smile inspite of everything once in a while. There are always solutions to the things that go wrong in life.
I just have to get through the panic so that I can start to think clearly.

Because of the intital paniced state I found myself in last night, I didn't sleep so well and I've been up since 5:30 a.m.

Problem solving time. I tried laying down and going back to sleep as I have a full day ahead of me of going to the laundry matt and grocery shopping and taking a rather large package to the post office. With this new problem I run the risk of getting a ticket...so I'm praying for an absence of cops in my vacinity today.

I've been thinking for a while for alternate methods of doing what I need to do. With the cost of gas going up, it's almost 4 dollars a gallon here. And since I use the truck for getting to work and doing the running and nothing else, and it's getting pretty insane trying to budget for more money to go to gas, I have been considering alternatives.

There is walking. The most cost effective solution, but very time comsuming depending on how far you have to walk to get where you need to go.

To make that as efficant as I can I need to either get a basket on wheels for carring larger amounts of food, or start doing chin up's and weight lifting so that I can carry the stuff while going on an hike to the nearest grocery store.
What I can carry will be limited by how strong I am.

Working the jobs I have over the last couple of years, and especially this last one, I have built some upper body strength that I didn't have before.
So that's a good thing.

There is the idea of getting a bike, but money is really tight right now. When isn't it? I need to find out if anyone has a bike they want to get rid of for cheap...I could add baskets and that would help.

There is the bus system.

And then there is the: finding another really cheap ride option.

This addition has with it the added bonus of reminding me that I will need to make some life style changes one way or another to accomidate this change.

I started looking on the net for information and it's a bit frustrating because I can't just get some clear answers, there is all this stuff to wade through, and all I want is simple answers.
Makes me want to put a web site that is all about simple easy and very clear answers to questions for thoes things that come up that you don't deal with very often.

Anyway, I got up and spoke my peace very quitely. And came out here and was still in a paniced state, but knowing from past experience that if I wait that out, then it will pass and then I can start working through it and come to some kind of reasonable solution that I can handle.

I've got this crazy long list of stuff like this that is still waiting to get fixed now.

I feel the weight squarely on my shoulders. And it's heavy.
The list of things I take care of now without help is rather long as well.

I just edited the rest of what I originally wrote. I think I just needed to see it on paper as it were. And now after having vented and rambeled for a while, I can figure this out.

I'm greatful for the edit button on this site.
Thankyou.

This post was edited by harold_maude on May 31, 2008.