Reading Nikistar26's journal

Yesterday, When I was laying on my bed alone in my house. I heard the telephone ring.
I got up, lazy, and answered it. To my surprise, I heard a familiar voice on the other line.
I was shocked, my first question I wanted to ask was:
"Why the hell are you calling me? What do you want now!?"
But instead, I asked, "How have you been?" the usually.
He said "Lonely, I miss you, I Love you."
My first thought was doubt. How could I believe that he Loved me after he left me alone in a totally different province, and the 'next day' found another girl! People who Love the other don't do that.
If he Loved me, then he wouldn't be able to move on within a 17hr span of time. It doesn't work that way.
Then, he told me he left her, and started speaking foul stuff about all the things he detested about her.
He told me that, he just dated her, because, he thought that he wouldn't see me ever again, and dating another would help him get over me faster, that it'll ease up the pain.
I didn't know whether I should believe him or not. Then I thought, 'Why shouldn't I? He wouldn't be calling me from a different town, with no hope of getting back together, to tell me how much he cared, if he really didn't'
So I accepted what he said.
He then told me, he was moving back. That came as a another huge shock.
Once we were done talking with eachother, which lasted 4 - 4 and half hours, I cried! My first time crying in 2-3 years.
To be honest, It was invigorating. I didn't know I had so much tears boxed up inside.
I never even felt the need to cry, so I did not.
I guess what people say is right about how crying is alot of help in releasing stress, emotional damage, and so on and so on.

But that just leaves me with one major question, 'should I take him back?'
I wanted to but, if anything like this happens again, garanteed, I would be more attached to him, and I would end up more hurt in the end. Right,,

He said "Lonely, I miss you, I Love you."

and started speaking foul stuff about all the things he detested about her.

He then told me, he was moving back.

So, um, you think he's broke, or just hurt/horny after that other girl dumped him?

When life hands you a lemon, that's 40% of your RDA of vitamin C taken care of.

This post was edited by null on Dec 08, 2009.

So, um, you think he's broke, or just hurt/horny after that other girl dumped him?

Now null, these things may be true, but that doesn't negate the possibility that this guy may truly feel that he loves her. Feelings swing wildly when one is a teenager (hormones and inexperience being the causes, I'd say).

People who Love the other don't do that.
If he Loved me, then he wouldn't be able to move on within a 17hr span of time. It doesn't work that way.

Yeah, I agree. But, since you're 16, I assume he's near your age (16-18), and as I implied earlier, I think that pretty much explains it. It's possible that he's trying to manipulate you, but also possible that he believes what he says at the same time (and equally possible that he will change his mind just as easily later).

That's a BINGO!

So, um, you think he's broke, or just hurt/horny after that other girl dumped him?

Well he'd been dating this chick for, I don't know, a month and a half, maybe two. We dated for a year and a half, something like that.
He moved away for his own personal reasons I refuse to expose to anyone. If he really didn't care for me, or just wanted a lay.. whatever it may be, why would he drive a 1000 and some kilometers to just spend a few nights in bed with me?

If you'd known us as, individuals, and as one, together. Maybe you would see that we weren't like the other couples hanging around here and there. We were unique together. As the comments of my former friends make. There is no way I could explain it, nor could any of my closest friends, or people who are just around.

We were different..
This may sound like any teenage story about their Love they share with their partner. Even older people I've asked out of sheer curiousity, said that we were different, but not in a bad way, nor good.. We were just different, were their exact words.

Ive asked for an explaination. "I can't define it" were practically the message they would send to me, but in a series of a variety of words..

If you'd known us as, individuals, and as one, together... Maybe you would see that we weren't like the other couples hanging around here and there.

Yeah, that may well be true. Pretty safe to say no one here knows you personally. All you'll get here is an objective view based solely on what you've written.

If you feel that the two of you have something special, that feeling is at least as important as any opinion you'll find here.

That's a BINGO!