Reading andromacha's journal

The word more suitable to today is depression! There is this horrible rainy day, and right now it feels like it is 9 pm over here. On the contrary, it is only 4 pm.
I know I should start studying for my exams, but I really am all but willing to do that. How can I think about my studies and everything when my mind is all concentrated on my Neil?

I miss him so much, and he left just yesterday. People say that as time passes the pain eases down. I do hope it is like that, but I can't wait to have him back in my arms again! At least, I hope that these holidays will end soon. I know I am pretty egoistic, but the end of the holidays will mean Neil to come back to college, and we will have the chance to get back to talk together almost everyday.

Well, I don't want to give you the impression that I am a bored and always depressed girl. I have my ups and downs you know. This is just one of the downs, but I am sure going to get back to my senses :)

In the meanwhile, I want to thank our good Jaz for putting up such a corner in Nao. At least I can post my own very personal feelings somewhere, and I know that the closest ones will help me cheering up whenever they get to read my posts and think I am too depressed.
This journal is useful under many point of views, and the one I just told is my personal opinion. I am sure that other guys (like Sifar) will love this corner because it is the right spot to post their poems or whatsoever they like :)

Un bacio è un'apostrofo rosa scritto tra le parole "ti amo".

This post was edited by andromacha on Dec 27, 2002.

Yes, maybe I managed to study for half an hour or so, but now... now my concentration is all lost. I don't know what to do, really! My Italian literature exam will be on 15/1, and I have studied less than nothing until now. I am supposed to study the whole history of Italian literature from 1200 till the second world war. That means almost 8 centuries!!!!

How a normal person is supposed to study so much in only one month? How? If someone has some suggestion which is different from taking liters of coffee and cracking the books, he is welcomed to speak out his mind! I also have the whole English literature to study from 1000 until 1700 to study.
Who ever said that the people who study humanistic stuff do nothing all the time? That is the conviction of all the students enrolled at engineering...

Argh! I am trying to find good reasons to convince me getting back my concentration (like, if you don't take your exams, you won't be able to get to America next summer), but still... it is so darn hard!

I remember that when I was attending telecommunications engineering I didn't find it so terribly difficult to maintain my concentration for more than 2 hours. Maybe it is the subject which obliges you to keep concentrated, I don't know... If only they didn't treat girls like dirt, I would be still enrolled there. *sigh* but I can't turn crazy, because they keep saying to girls that they aren't meant to be engineers!!! It is too frustrating, and it is even more frustrating seeing that you fail an exam (with 17 so one point less than the lowest grade to pass an exam) while your male friend passes it making the same mistakes you did with a 25!!!!! How I hate that!!!!

Well, thanks for taking some time to read my journal. I really needed to speak up my mind like this. I am feeling so much better now. I'll get a coffee, and come back to my lovable Petrarch! Bah :)

Un bacio è un'apostrofo rosa scritto tra le parole "ti amo".

And so I managed to study the whole stuff Petrarch wrote during his lousy life... but there is so much stuff I should still learn before that exam, that I really don't know where to turn. My eyes just want to close and get some sleep, but I know that if I get to sleep tomorrow I won't be willing to get up early to study.

I know that all I need is a little bit of good will, but where do I find it? I don't think it can be bought at the supermarket! :P My point is, why do students have to study so much during their holidays in order to take their exams by the first half of January or so?
It would be so much better if we were tested during the course, so that we'd need to study less things all at once and exams would be easier.

Unfortunately, I can't change Italian universities'rules, but... man, I am so pissed off about this situation! Our professors don't think we are normal persons, they think we are like little robots, always ready to learn stuff, and to memorize useless things just to get good grades at the exams! I have always liked Italian literature, but now, I am getting to hate it!

Well, I guess that my break is over now. I have to get back on my books! I only hope that my mom will wake me up in case I fell asleep on the kitchen table!!!
Goodnight to everyone out there. I hope that you are having a more decent time than me!

Un bacio è un'apostrofo rosa scritto tra le parole "ti amo".